Thursday, December 21, 2006

Memories in the office

Since the day Pamela, Andrew and Huimin stepped into FP, things have been really different for me. I have seen a great change in the culture of Corp Comms Dept. Things really changed. In fact, everything seems to have changed for the better, especially towards me.

You can't believe what I did last evening in the office. I started digging out all the old photos that we took since last year August. I started to ask everyone to look at Huimin's photo which she was still slimmer? haha... working in FP can prove that FP is a feeding company... eat and eat and eat... soon, Pamela, Huimin and Andrew all flood to my desk to look at the pics. we laughed abt the stupid and silly mistakes we have made.... especially me... always bringing the people to wrong the place... first to Bayshore Park, then to Da Chang Jin... alamak... me n my stupid direction sense... proven to be true.

We laughed n laughed n laughed... till the point that tears came into my eyes. Not because it was really super funny, but cos of the fact that I am leaving them really soon. Andrew see the pics and halfway he really cannot tahan. He told me just now that he almost cried last night. I think I almost did too. Well, of cos I didn't. I need to control mah... haha...

I think the many memories flooded into our minds.. and we were all reminded of the beautiful memories and many fun times we had together.

When I met up with Andrew and Pamela just now, Andrew told me about how he felt and that he had never felt so bad before about a colleague leaving the company. He asked if I will cry if I dedicate a song to me on Sat afternoon... but I think Huimin will surely cry if she hears that. But I'm thankful that she is in Hong Kong now... so that she don't have to think about my departure. But Andrew's words struck deep in my heart. He apologised for not giving me enough attention for the past few months... due to his busy datelines etc. Well, it is never anyone's fault. I just felt that I can't move on in this line. Although at times, I really don't know why I get so upset for. But I know that deep in my heart, I want to have more of everyone's attention in the office.

I am childish in this sense but I am also frank of my need for people's concern for me. Well, I just have to grow out of all these so that I will be even more independent than before. What Pamela told me last time is true... I need to learn from Huiming in some areas... being more decisive and not emotional. Aiya... whatever it is, it is a team of members that help to cover one another. Even though we have had loads of conflicts and frustrations, when things doesn't move our way, we always learn to let go and move on. It might seems tough for me at some point, but as I reflect, I gain great lessons from it.

I'll post some pics up later on... time for some reflection... :p

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Looking Back 2006

Looking back to 2006, I felt that I have grown so much more than 2005. 2005 had been a tough year for me. Not that 2006 wasn't any tougher, but it seems that I have learnt to take things with a better stride than before.

I've got to know friends around me in a deeper way - no more surface friendships. But also, I have also got to know that no one is perfect. Haha.. you might be wondering why am I saying all this when I have already knew this long time ago. But true enough, I have understood this statement in a clearer manner. No one is perfect. Indeed, someone, everyone or anyone will always try to put up the best front when with people. I know that not everyone does that. But somehow, there is an inclination within human likeness to hide our flaws, hoping that the person sitting or standing next to us will not discover our weaknesses or even so-call the 'darkest secrets'.

I think I won't share my darkest secrets to anyone except to those that I felt close to and I feel that I can entrust my life with. And you might be even more surprised not even my closest ones at home know it. I am truly appreciative of what God has done in my life to place people whom I can trust and entrust my life with. I know that even to the point if I'm called back home one day, my buddies will surely take care of my family members. Friendship, perhaps is just one of the areas that I have discovered more. I've learnt to accept those around me for who they are. And even though I know that some I really hate to accept, God just wants me to learn to do things His ways. Well, people relations are always the most complicated stuff in life, isn't it true?

I've also came to terms with myself that I can get pretty ugly when I am very upset or disturbed by people's words and actions. Well, for those who thinks that Tricia aka Yanz is very kind and compassionate, always willing to help... etc (puiz... wanna vomit liaoz...) I have a lousy temperament. Yes, I will declare it loud, again and again. Though after I came to know Christ, I have toned down by almost 60% but I still hold the 40% in me and I need to learn to tame this 40% of temper in me. I know myself very well that if I flare up at some situations, it will be very "Yanz", which all my close childhood friends know of me very well. But if I control my temper and anger, it will be very "Christ", the Christ who lives in me and the Christ who cares for me to love me. Many a times, I know that Christ helped me in my character flaws, to build flaws into strengths.

And I am still a WIP (Work-In-Progress) and I know that God will definitely forgive me even after I get angry or show my frustration for the thousand times. And I will call that "Grace".

Lord, thank you for 2006 and thank you for your ever-sufficient grace.

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Monday, December 18, 2006

I'm going off...

Yes.. I will be leaving my current job soon. In fact, I have not even tendered yet but I've already gotten a confirmation from the new employer. It is going to be very exciting.

2 years and 9 months... in the current workplace... is not any easy deal at all. Seen the whole team changed, from then till now, it has been many transitions that I went through.

I'm having difficulty parting with my colleagues. I think I will cry. My eyes will surely be red and teary...

Many beautiful memories and also many stupid mistakes made... I will definitely choose to remember them all.

Goodbye FP...


Wednesday, December 13, 2006

A reunion with ex-shepherd

As Christmas draws nearer, the number of choir practices are increasing as well... Somehow, we are anticipating a good time this year, at Kallang Theatre. With all the musical drama, performances and dance, we will be able to see a great deal of performances this year. Most importantly, the reason for Christmas will be re-emphasised again, hoping that more people will understand the true meaning behind Christmas, not just giving gifts, shopping or partying. The true reason will be made known to you, only if you have an open heart to realise it.

I reached Somerset ydae at 6pm. Why so early? Cos I managed to hitch a cab ride from my boss who was going to town as well. I walked towards Centrepoint, and as I approached level 2 on the escalator, I saw Ps Jasmine looking at the cart stall's earrings intensively. haha... My ex-shepherd... I finally get to meet her, with no agenda or fixed appointment. When she last shepherded me, it was year 2000 if I'm not wrong. So I stood beside her and asked, " Hi Mdm, is there anything I can help you?" haha... and there I saw her very smilely and shocked at my presence. So there, we looked at the earrings and I accompanied her to buy some photoframes, that she intended to get for her family members.

Walking around with her made me feel like her sheep again. Haha... and she had a brand new haircut. I shan't post her pics here... haha... check out her new haircut in the tertiary service... hee... We had some good time eating dinner together, with Yupei and Baowei. After that, we went for choir and band practices.

Had some good time with Rachael and Mama Jac, and of cos, my dearest choir buddies... I just don't know why I was so high yesterday but I was basically crappy throughout the whole practice. hee... and now, we wanna work towards having the fun of the year, our Christmas celebration... I need to get time off to buy gifts leh... sweat!!

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Monday, December 11, 2006


Attending a wedding for the first time, a little girl whispered to her mother, "Why is the bride dressed in white?" "Because white is the color of happiness, and today is the happiest day of her life." The child thought about this for a moment, then said, "So why is the groom wearing black?"

A little girl, dressed in her Sunday best, was running as fast as she could, trying not to be late for Bible class. As she ran she prayed, "Dear Lord, please don't let me be late! Dear Lord, please don't let me be late!" While she was running and praying, she tripped on a curb and fell, getting her clothes dirty and tearing her dress. She got up, brushed herself off, and started running again! in. As she ran she once again began to pray, "Dear Lord, please don't let me be late... But please don't shove me either!"

Three boys are in the school yard bragging about their fathers. The first boy says, "My Dad scribbles a few words on a piece of paper, he calls it a poem, they give him $50. The second boy says, "That's nothing. My Dad scribbles a few words on a piece of paper, he calls it a song, they give him $100." The third boy says, "I got you both beat. My Dad scribbles a few words on a piece of paper, he calls it a sermon, and it takes eight people to collect all the money!"

An elderly woman died last month. Having never married, she requested no male pallbearers. In her handwritten instructions for her memorial service, she wrote, "They wouldn't take me out while I was alive, I don't want them to take me out when I'm dead."

A police recruit was asked during the exam, "What would you do if you had to arrest your own mother?" He answered "Call for backup."

A Sunday School teacher asked her class why Joseph and Mary took Jesus with them to Jerusalem. A small child replied: "They couldn't get a baby sitter."

A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her five and six year olds. After explaining the commandment to "honor thy father and thy mother," she asked "Is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?" Without missing a beat one little boy answered, "Thou shall not kill."

At Sunday School they were teaching how God created everything, including human beings. Little Johnny seemed especially intent when they told him how Eve was created out of one of Adam's ribs. Later in the week his mother noticed him lying down as though he were ill, and she said, "Johnny, what is the matter?" Little Johnny responded, "I have pain in my side. I think I'm going to have a wife."

Two boys were walking home from Sunday school after hearing a strong preaching on the devil. One said to the other, "What do you think about all this Satan stuff?" The other boy replied, "Well, you know how Santa Claus turned out. It's probably just your Dad.


Friday, December 08, 2006

Happy Feet

Happy Feet has shown me what it meant by not everyone is good in everything. The whole fleet of penguins are supposed to find their heart song since they are tots but somehow, Mumble, is not able to find his. Well, instead of being able to sing really well, he was gifted with the feet that can dance and the ability to rhythm well.

I put myself in his shoes... I thought to myself, "Will I discriminate those who cannot sing as well as me?" or " Will I fade away slwoly if I am not able to perform as well as the rest?"

My goodness.. such a cute little animation movie can actually inspire me so much. I can't deny the fact that sometimes I really feel like fading away in my workplace. I felt that I couldn't have as much attention as I want from my colleagues. Well, I can say that insecurity sipped in most of the times at work and I really hope to improve from here. Somehow, being a TL is just as limited. I just cannot do what I want to.

Does certification really matter? Can a TL not do a TL's job?

I don't want to remain as it is. Mundane work will only remain mundane. Will there ever be new challenges? Must I always be sitting at the registration counter or do I have to always be receiving instructions? Can't I have a mind of my own?

haha.. I think I just have to be like Mumble. I want to find my forte. My heart's song. My abilities and giftings. I'm not as untalented right? haha...

Ok, maybe I should just pick up my guitar and sing all night long...."Don't worry... be happy..."

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

slogging still...

yesh.. i'm still in office slogging away... kind of losing my energy levels...

many many unfinished tasks but still, I really don't know how to accomplish all of them. maybe smile more will help....

ok.. i can't deny that happy feet did help me a bit.... be happy like mumble!!

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UTP Finally Over!

The Used Textbook Project is finally over! I'm just so glad that it has ended and no more books in sight... haha... But my goodness, the student volunteers this year are really mischievious... haha... this little girl named Dorathy started calling me nickname... Babara... This is the funniest nickname that is given to me. Babara... a character in a witch show (Channel 8) that Chen Liping acted as. Alamak.. do i look like a witch or do I look like Chen Liping??

Anyway, this year seems tougher than last year. Had a few unreasonable adults coming to us with unreasonable requests. I shan't mention the cases. But I am just so curious why some people can afford to take cab to the place but has no money to buy textbooks for their kids. I really wonder...

Anyway I can't deny the fact that I am starting to miss some of the kids... some of them are really very dear to my heart leh... shan't mention names in case I start a war of jealousy? haha...

The above four girls (from left) are Jiahui, Celine, Junwen and Dorathy... Very helpful girls...

And finally, the group pic...

I am looking forward to see them for the post-celebration... hee... HCI and DHS rocks!

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Friday, December 01, 2006

Used Textbooks Project 2006

Used Textbooks Project is back! Yes.. And I am kind of proud of this project as it really benefits many people in Singapore. Though I am not in charge of the project, I am sure proud to support my fellow colleague, Bibi... at Downtown East, while she is at Yio Chu Kang CC.

This project has been around since 1983 and this year will be the 23rd year that we are running this project. I think I have ever heard of this project when I was a kid.. but I have never liked the idea of using 'used textbooks'. I think I only collected the books once? haha...

However, now as I am part of the team in this project, I am really glad as I can see many needy families benefitting from it.

And it will be starting tomorrow for the Priority Scheme Beneficiaries. And will be working from 7am to 7pm? haha or even later... dunnoe la... hope that I'm able to wake up for church on Sunday.

That is all for now... for any urgent matters, please kindly call 97*9*8**9. You can figure out the numbers if u want... haha... ciaoz for now!