Friday, June 27, 2003

yesterday (26 June) was a night that marked the birthing out of GN (Global North) unit. Amazing God's grace!! Our new unit consist of 3 wonderful Care Groups led by Kelly, Edwin and Alex (my CL) !! yeah!! And our wonderful new UL is Guang Rong (don't know spell it correctly anot). I guess that he is really leading the new group with lots of courage (that chased out fear) and love (that chased out trembling). haha it is exciting to support this new leader of ours.

(1 Tim 5: 16-18 ~The elders who direct the affairs of the church well are worthy of double honor, especially those whose work is preaching and teaching. )

When we went out to be prayed for as a new unit, I felt so excited, cos it seems to be so happening over here in YA. I have just been transfered to this group and it is birthing out another unit. Fruitful indeed!! It is always good to see God growing and multiplying his people.

Also, last night when I reached FMC, I saw Alex running here and there trying to fix the mic for the guitar. The very kay poh me went over to the mixer and helped him to test out the mic. haha. finally the mic worked just 5 mins the whole event kicked start. I did the mixing for the whole P & W and chairing as well. hmm never do this for more than one month liao and a bit rusty liao. haha

Anyway my new sound duty will start in July, once a month. It is good to be back in the sound console at FOH. I missed the times that I do mixing and sound check. Also, times when I'm doing mixing and worshipping at the same time. hehe

My new shepherd is coming soon.... don't know who is going to be my new shepherd. Feel a bit nervous. Anyway, Josh is getting along well with her new shepherd as well, Kelly. Hope that we'll grow more as we have a new shepherd feeding us with the Word and taking care of our needs.

After CG yesterday, I saw Jefferson at Maxwell market, a backslider from Youth service. he was with us in 1997 to 1998. very long long time ago liao. tried inviting him to service and I think he will come. But guess that it is time that God bless me with some fresh sheep, non-believers who have never come to know the Lord before. May God help me!!

~ You are the Love of my life, You are the Hope that I cling to. You mean more than this world to me. I wouldn't trade you for silver and gold, i wouldn't trade you for riches untold. You are, you are my everything. ~

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

eh oh!! wah. Thank God it is Wednesday and I am so glad that I have gone thru half of the week ... (don't know how did i managed to survive) anyway it is always God's grace that brought me thru.

toking to junyao now and we are recalling how God spoke to us last time and how God used me to challenge the people in the past... that so many lives were touched.... i'm just so grateful of how God used me last time. I believe that he can use me now too cos he's the same yesterday, today and forever...

actualli i have a lot of burden and passion for P & W. But when I came over to YA, I realised that people needs the lord so much. the compassion just deepened my conviction that i need to outreach to the people.

See the conversation below between me and Junyao on ICQ:

|shEphErd (7:22 PM) :

yan yan!!

Tricia Tan (7:22 PM) :


|shEphErd (7:23 PM) :

went home so early ah?

Tricia Tan (7:23 PM) :

nope i'm still in office

|shEphErd (7:24 PM) :

wah!! so late!! doing what?

Tricia Tan (7:24 PM) :

work lar

|shEphErd (7:24 PM) :


Tricia Tan (7:25 PM) :


|shEphErd (7:25 PM) :


|shEphErd (7:36 PM) :

u got blog?

Tricia Tan (7:38 PM) :

i have xanga....

|shEphErd (7:39 PM) :

wah!! is ASP.Net leh

Tricia Tan (7:39 PM) :

huh?? wat u mean

|shEphErd (7:40 PM) :

nothing... some programming stuff

|shEphErd (7:41 PM) :

wah!! Your child & princess!

Tricia Tan (7:41 PM) :


Tricia Tan (7:41 PM) :

nice hor

|shEphErd (7:41 PM) :


Tricia Tan (7:42 PM) :

hehe i did the colour combi myself

|shEphErd (7:43 PM) :

izzit? not bad leh

Tricia Tan (7:43 PM) :

hehe thank u hor

|shEphErd (7:44 PM) :

u are welcome!!

|shEphErd (7:46 PM) :

wah!! kinda miss those inspiring speech u have for us last time... reading ur diary reminds me all the hard work, tears & sweat last time

Tricia Tan (7:47 PM) :

hmm where u reading now??

i miss those times that i challenge with all my heart and soul as well

|shEphErd (7:47 PM) :

read finish the 1st page liao

Tricia Tan (7:48 PM) :


|shEphErd (7:48 PM) :

now going for the 2nd

|shEphErd (7:49 PM) :

ur bowling skills!! hAAH!!

Tricia Tan (7:49 PM) :

but only that time i failed what

my pool skills improving though

|shEphErd (7:50 PM) :

u mean u are playing pool also?

Tricia Tan (7:50 PM) :

yar my first outing with CG is pool haha and badminton

|shEphErd (7:50 PM) :

next time can challenge u liao...

Tricia Tan (7:50 PM) :

ok on...!!

|shEphErd (7:50 PM) :

how come the photos are not showing ah??

Tricia Tan (7:51 PM) :

cos of some problems... i give u a url u check it out ok??

|shEphErd (7:51 PM) :

(Acts 20:24)


|shEphErd (7:52 PM) :

thats a nice verse!!

Tricia Tan (7:52 PM) :


Tricia Tan (7:52 PM) :

|shEphErd (7:52 PM) :

still remember how u challenge me to serve God in the mac in queensway

Tricia Tan (7:53 PM) :

haha... i told u abt being serious abt God's vision and his people

|shEphErd (7:54 PM) :


|shEphErd (7:54 PM) :

time flies man!!

|shEphErd (7:54 PM) :

but all these memories is still so fresh in my mind !!

Tricia Tan (7:56 PM) :

hmm tht's good

|shEphErd (7:56 PM) :

remember Dewen dancing on the table & *BOM* he hit the ceiling!! hah!!

|shEphErd (7:57 PM) :

remember calling me @ night & asked me got anything to confess??

Tricia Tan (7:57 PM) :

haha at WTC... the 11th floor right

Tricia Tan (7:57 PM) :

the Siobhan thing

|shEphErd (7:57 PM) :

remember Ethan was late for 2 hrs for cg??

Tricia Tan (7:57 PM) :

haha and i'm so fierce and strict with u guys

Tricia Tan (7:57 PM) :

yesh... taking his history text with him

|shEphErd (7:58 PM) :

yeah!! but really thank God for what u did or else all of us will not be where we are right now

Tricia Tan (7:59 PM) :

i mean i din do much... it's God who is working in all of your hearts

|shEphErd (7:59 PM) :

still remember the camp u challenge us until we cry!! thats 1 cry i will never forget man

|shEphErd (7:59 PM) :

God uses you!!

Tricia Tan (7:59 PM) :

yar i am so thankful

Tricia Tan (7:59 PM) :

it's the st john camp

if u din tell me i might not have recall

|shEphErd (8:00 PM) :


Tricia Tan (8:01 PM) :

u not crying... u were wailing away haha

|shEphErd (8:01 PM) :

i remember God told me that He chose me... when i heard that, my tears couldn't stop flowing out

|shEphErd (8:01 PM) :

ya... i know

|shEphErd (8:02 PM) :

that's was when i know that God is more important than anything

Tricia Tan (8:02 PM) :

good. very good.

|shEphErd (8:03 PM) :

wah all ur blogging is so ministering!!

Tricia Tan (8:03 PM) :

hehe realli ??

|shEphErd (8:03 PM) :


Tricia Tan (8:04 PM) :


|shEphErd (8:04 PM) :

frankly speaking... as i was reading, there's tears in my eyes

Tricia Tan (8:04 PM) :

aiya dun be too emotional lar

|shEphErd (8:05 PM) :

no lah... just amazed how great God's grace is

|shEphErd (8:05 PM) :

the faithfulness he has for us

Tricia Tan (8:06 PM) :

yar... actualli when i tink back abt my backslide i will be overwhelmed with fear... but also thankfulness of God pulling me back to His light

|shEphErd (8:06 PM) :

hmmm... amen!!


well... indeed i was tearing a bit too... but cannot cry cos i'm still in the office typing this. hehe... the above conversation reminds me of the wonderful memories of me leading the student group from 1997 till 2001. it is just so amazing. i miss times when i challenge people with my heart and soul, with my tears and with my strength. but i'm glad that God bring me to YA so that I can mature and know him even better. Indeed the Sunday Service is realli different from Youth Service. Cos it is so much more teaching of the Word, prayer and Worship. And I have a wonderful CG, a family in Christ that realli cares for me and listen to me as well.

Well. God is good. he never fails. And I pray also that my dearest colleague sitting next to my desk will come to know this good Lord in one month's time. :)

gtg... catch ya soon.


Saturday, June 21, 2003

Yoz!! It's a Sat morning and I woke up from bed early at 9am... (normally I always wake up even earlier to go Youth Service). This week has been simple for me. Why? Cos I din want to think too much. Thinking sometimes causes side effect though. Haha...

Anyway during thurs lunch I had a horrible time. Because my colleague kept on asking me why I shifted out to stay with my friends. Why didn't I stay with my family members. And then keep on probing about my background. I almost wanted to burst out in tears. Though I am kinda bubbly with them, but they should have a red light to certain things that they ask me and suan me about. I almost cannot take it anymore!! I wish that I can be an eagle that can fly away immediately from that moment onwards.

Anyway I am thankful to God for blessing Nicole with a principal job at a new AGAPE childcare centre, with good increments, good staff benefits and most importantly good working hours... haha
I believe that God will bless me with a good job too, just wait for his timing!! :) I know what I need to do now is to persevere on in Videovan, gain the kinda experience that I need then find a better job... :)

So why worry?? God is with me. His grace is ever with me.... I need not fear, I need not be discouraged.... :) God is good and his love endures forever!!!


Wednesday, June 18, 2003

Today I had a funny morning. My principal from Celestial Pictures came to my office. He's a tall Caucasian named Mr William Pffeifer. Wow. Look at him. u will lov to see him cos he's so handsome. haha.

anyway everyone were like in a fluster as we are trying to pack their things nicely, do the display at the reception properly, making the whole office neat and tidy, though it is actually not that neat after all. This is a morning that reminded me of Jesus who is coming back soon. If Jesus is coming back soon, what will we be doing now?? Reading, sleeping, or trying to get things right in our lives with God?? Haha. I tink it is just time for us to wake up from our lala land isn't it true. Anyway just work your best for the Lord. He is realli coming back soon. At a time that u and I dun even know at all.

So dear all, pls pls pls. I beg all of u. Don't waste time away. Take up God's call for you in your life and charge all the way can??

Live life to the fullest!!

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

Read This...
  • Give God what's right -- not what's left
  • Man's way leads to a hopeless end -- God's way leads to an endless hope
  • A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing
  • He who kneels before God can stand before anyone
  • In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma--but never let him be the period
  • Don't put a question mark where God puts a period
  • Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church for a face-lift
  • When praying, don't give God instructions - just report for duty
  • Don't wait for six strong men to take you to church
  • We don't change God's message -- His message changes us
  • The church is prayer-conditioned
  • When God ordains, He sustains
  • WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning
  • Plan ahead -- It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark
  • Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position
  • Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Bible
  • Exercise daily -- walk with the Lord
  • Never give the devil a ride -- he will always want to drive
  • Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it
  • Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back
  • He who angers you controls you
  • Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop
  • Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler
  • Be ye fishers of men -- you catch them & He'll clean them
  • God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called
  • Read the Bible -- It will scare the hell out of you

It has been a few days since I updated my Xanga. Anyway been a long weekend.... though it's just two days but i managed to accomplish a lot of things ya!! Had a fruitful week last week cos I managed to get some contact numbers through street evangelism at Cineleisure. This is my first time doing street surveys to adults. And mind you, it is not easy at all.
At first, I didn't have the courage to approach at all. But with my partner Luke, we began to practise courage by initiating and approaching some out there.
After that session, I realised that my compassion for the lost souls must continuously deepen and the conviction to reach out to them must grow even much more.

Last Saturday, I managed to make the decision to go back home to spend time with my mom, dad, nephew, niece. Haha. I forsaken the right to go Sentosa with my CG (though I wanted to go). I tink I missed out a lot of fun there but in return I managed to get some good rest, spend time with my family, do my laundry and also watched Harry Potter!! hehe.... Fruitful Sat indeed.

Sunday was the precious day. has our dear visitor with us, Mr Chua Wei Quan and his 2 friends from Navy, Zhi Ming and Adam. Glad to see them there. Pray that they will really know God even more to a deeper extend.

Life is short. Spend your life to the fullest extend u can. I believe that I will do so hopefully.

~Only One Life Soon Will Past. Only What's Done For Christ Will Last.~

Thursday, June 12, 2003

ready steady go!! (whistle) oh yeah... it has been a tough week cos physically din have enough rest to recuperate myself. anyway yesterday the forgetful me forgotten to take the hp back with me to the office. then my colleagues decided to play a joke on me by switching off my hp and kept it from me first (teach me a lesson). when i realised that my hp is lost, i've decided to give thanks. I prayed to God and told him that if he has a new hp to give me why not... (haha... to cover up my mistake, this should be the way) so when i din managed to find my hp at the canteen i went back to office and my colleague then passed the hp back to me.

anyway the hp is not important but what's most important is the lost soul out there. I've attempted to get michelle to church after so many attempts. but i din give up. what's the funniest thing is that I've tried to get alex to get her down with me rather than just myself alone. so i made him talk to her over the phone. hehe... we are almost there liaoz....

today she asked me about some questions about whether will i be holding joss sticks and pray to my ancestors or next time if my parents pass away can i pray to them too. i answered her doubts and i'm glad that she asked me these questions. haha
it's a great time to SOW in the heart of the lost. I hope that I can continue to be salt and light in the world. i wanna be a great evangelist to witness to the lost souls. i wanna take up the leadership role by pastoring his pple.

haha i tink i am just so excited about what's going to happen to me next. now i am waiting for michelle to leave office with me. i hope that i will be able to get her to church within the next two weeks. she's my number one target after such a long break from evax. hehe.... God pls forgive me for my unfaithfulness..... i hope that you will anoint me again.

your child and princess.....

Tuesday, June 10, 2003

i'm back!! back from camp. back to the reality of the world. back to God's arms. wonderful. God has never failed to refresh me each time when I seek him and draw near to him. the courageous community has indeed changed my life. i realli am glad that i made the decision to come back to God and go for the church camp.

haha i've gotten all my objectives. there's a few in all. firstly, i want to love the Word of God even more and use the Word as a basic foundation in my life. secondly, i want to exercise my spiritual gifts to minister to others and myself even. thirdly, i want to know how can i be a positive influence to my colleagues and pple ard me as well. lastly, i want to involve myself to a more worshipful and prayerful child of his.

indeed, God is faithful and every single lesson that Ps Simon Eng and Pastor James Loke taught, he has never failed to speak to me. His grace is abundant, so abundant that we can never have enough of it.

maybe it's time for me to be more courageous by forgetting about the past bad experiences and straining the prize that God has prepared for me.

so i will move on. by God's grace i want to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given to me, the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace. (Acts 20:24)

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

Hi everybody!! God is a good good good good God!!! yeah yeah!! he had my paryers answered. I managed to go for the full church camp from Thursday 5 June till Sunday 8 June. Supposedly, I have to work on this coming Saturday but thank God he postponed the working Saturday till the next month.

I'm happy, joyful and feel so marvellous... I think coming camp (A Courageous Community) I need to set some goals and objectives whereby I have not even started. I think tonight and tomorrow night I need to set aside some time to seek God and get his word of advice. So that I will be able to set some realistic goals and objectives.

Also, need to keep praying for my boss (Alex). He needs a job!! God, will u grant him a job pls... so that he can extend your kingdom even much more... I know you will!!! Amen!!! So why worry. Trust in the Lord who provides.... ;)

~ what will u do if u were to live your life again? ~ tell me ok??