A Testimony About Supernatural Birth

Written by my friend, Kelly Yeo. Hope that this will encourage those who are trying to conceive. Fix your eyes on the God, the creator of all lives, the creator of you and me.


INTRODUCTION

My husband and I have been married for 7 years. About two years into our marriage, we planned to start a family. Over the course of the next 4-5 years, to my horror, I had 5 miscarriages – none of the pregnancies lasted longer than eight weeks. The most recent were the 2 missed abortions, these required surgery and they happened in Oct 07 and Jul 08. Each “loss” experience took me a period of time to recover emotionally and it never fails to bring me through a emotional and spiritual roller coaster ride. Well, though the rides did get shorter over the years, the fears, anxieties and doubts did not and they constantly bombarded my mind. As this seemingly hopeless pattern developed, we realized that we had a real problem. Both of us saw several doctors, western and Chinese physicians, tried medications and went through a series of tests to determine if something could be corrected physically. I even contemplated IVF as my last resort. Nothing we did gave us any answer to why this was happening.


AFTER THE 5TH MISCARRIAGE, WHAT WENT THROUGH YOUR MIND AND HOW YOU FEEL?

The most recent missed abortion happened in Jul 08. I remembered it very clearly because we just came back from a very fired-up/charged-up church camp. And I was ready to give my all in ministry when IT happened again. I was so devastated. I felt so defeated. Fear came and bombarded my thoughts very often. It was very real. I was fearful because I felt caught in a situation which I was unable to control. I was so doubtful whether I could ever have children, whether I would have to go through another miscarriage again, whether I should just give up the thought about having a child totally etc. I asked God many questions such as why does He allow bad things to happen to us?, Why is He not answering my prayers?, Does He really love me? It just seems so impossible for my husband and me to ever have children.


THEN WHAT HAPPENED TO RAISE YOUR HOPE?

In Nov 08, we attended a leaders’ ministering night by Peter Truong - a friend whom I happened to know since Melbourne days and a healing evangelist for Hope Churches. Secretly in my heart, I was hoping that Peter would speak a word about this area of my life because I had been seeking the Lord for an answer for the last few months.

Here’s Peter’s prophesy for me:
That I would fan the flame of Intercession, Prophetic and Discernment.

The week after, something happened to my heart which was indescribable – I would call it a spiritual excitement. The question whether I have the gift of intercession bugged me quite a bit so I prayed to the Lord that if I have this gift then I would like to claim it in Jesus' name. I also asked the Lord to show me a good book to buy so that I could learn more about it. I picked up two books: Intercessory Prayer by Dutch Sheets and God Encounters by James w. Goll.

I started reading “Intercessory Prayer” by Dutch Sheets. The more I read, the more excited I got. Not very long after, I was starting to fast and pray 2 nights a week until the Lord challenged me to pray in tongues every night for at least an hour.

In his book, Dutch Sheets shared about Genesis 1:2 "Now the earth was formless and empty…and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters." "To hover" in Greek means “to give birth to”. After reading that, every night I prayed in the Spirit for an hour and asked the same Spirit of God who hovered over the surface of the earth before the creation to come and hover over me... Birth in me whatever He thinks He wants me to have, whether it’s to have a child or the gift of intercession.

In his book, Dutch Sheets also testified about how he prayed for a woman who had already been in coma for a year. The Lord had challenged him to pray for her every day at the hospital. After a year of persistent prayer, she woke up after being in coma for 2 years. After reading this, I was really determined in my heart to pray an hour every day for 2 years for a child.


WHAT WENT THROUGH YOUR MIND AND HOW DO YOU FEEL WHEN YOU KNOW YOU ARE PREGNANT?

I was praying an hour every night till mid Dec 08 when I realised I was 5 weeks pregnant.

During my first doctor's visit, I could see my baby’s heartbeat beating. It was amazing! It was so surreal that I cried.

But that's not the end of my story.

On 31 December 08, in the early hours of the morning, I had been turning and tossing in my bed for a few hours, but still I couldn’t go to sleep because there was this nagging prompting in my heart to go and sleep in my living room. I finally relented.

Not long after moving to my living room I drifted to sleep, I had a vivid dream. I dreamt that the exact spot where I had been sleeping was flooded with water. I got up and was looking closely at the pile of water. With a puzzled look on my face, I looked at my windows. They were all closed. My first question was 'But my windows are closed?' Immediately and almost suddenly, I woke up from my dream and I heard these words.

The Lord said, 'No matter how the windows and doors are closed if I want to come and rain upon you (and your family)... Nobody can stop me.'

The very next night, I had another dream of a kingly figure dressed in royal robe and crown. He seemed to be seated at a banquet table. He was commanding with such authority. Immediately, the next scene appeared, this same kingly figure was serving like a servant at the banquet table.

Again, I woke up from my dream and I heard these words.

The Lord said, 'Those who serve in authority must also serve in humility.''

I knew these dreams were from the Lord because during that period I was reading the second book that I bought – God Encounters by James Goll. The book was about how he and his family experienced angelic encounters, dreams and visions. I was seeking for God to speak to me like how He spoke to James and his family as I desired His tangible presence very much.

DID YOU SUCCESSFULLY DELIVER THE BABY? WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO NOW?

I believe the Lord is saying that He's ABLE during impossible situation and His words brought me much comfort and encouragement. I used to visit my gynae with fear and disappointment. But the next 3-4 months, each visit had been with confidence of what the Lord had promised me. I really felt loved by God. Never did I expect Him to speak to me supernaturally through a dream.

This is my son, Joel. He’ll be 21 weeks old as at 31 Dec 09.

This experience has changed my prayer life tremendously. I used to believe “prayer changes things” here (pointing to my mind). But now I really believe prayer changes things here (pointing to my heart). The Bible says, “According to your faith will it be done to you.” There isn’t a right way or wrong way. There isn’t a Kelly’s way. It’s according to our faith. God will meet us at our level of faith – whatever that level is.

I want to be able to take God’s Word and change our circumstances, whatever it may be, through prayer and faith.

The greatest gift of all

Today, 4 February 2012, marks the day that an old person has gone and a new person has come. And that person is none other than my dearest mum!

Ever since the day that I knew the Lord, I know that He is making changes in my family, in ways that I cannot comprehend. It may not be in the speediest time that salvation arrive in my family, but I know that slowly but surely, all things ate made beautiful in His time.

Mummy's life has always been bitter and tough. My dad has never given her a good life but just tonnes of debts to clear. But today, when I brought to Miracle Service, I have never even thought that she will receive Jesus into her life!! I was truly marveled by God's secret ways and my secret disbelief! Me of little faith!! That's why I need to call myself faith tricia. Ha...

When I popped the question to her, translating what Ps Rony has asked about salvation, she said 'Yes, but can you accompany me to the front?'

I was like.... Of course I will!! And tears of joy came as I hear my mum repeated the sinners' prayers in mandarin! That moment was surreal and it felt like forever! Ya, like eternity!

Praise God for His unfailing love, for me, for my mum and for all mankind!

Mum's salvation is just the first step of how God is going to continue His work in my family!

Glory and honor to the Lord, forever and ever, Amen!!

3 things that made me smile today

1. Mum is finally going to church with me. ;)

2. Watched 'We Not Naughty' today. Very reflective of how kids felt and how parents can be better is parenting!

3. Spent time with mum with the entire day. Fruitful time!!

Hope Faith Love

Amazing love from our heavenly daddy cannot be compared to anyone else at all, not even your spouse.

However I love it when both Alex an myself draw near to God in prayer and worship. Its because that through our experience with Jesus then will we be able to find greater intimacy with each other.

God is amusing. He knows exactly when we start to place much hope and faith in ourselves and will put us in situations to remind us that we need to rely on His power and strength, not on our own. He is not a tyrant btw. He is just trying to teach us to mature in our own beautiful ways.

The past few months have been a real journey for me. The journey that reminds me that my wisdom is no wisdom at all, my experiences are minus compared to the significance of the creator of the earth.

The Lord is gracious and merciful. He will not take me beyond what I cannot bear. He knows exactly where is my breaking point and have decided to pull back from that collapsible.

Above all, hope in the Lord, which will be accompanied by faith in Him. And He who loves me will keep me. He who loves me will always reward me with the best life plan ever.

I will trust in you Lord, by your grace, keep me trusting in You. Amen!

In Memory of A Dear Friend, Li Hongyang (1983-2012)

Yup, this pic was taken in 2008, during my last days in FP. The colleagues surrounding me were my HR colleagues. But I am not going to talk about anyone else today, but one person. That is him, Hongyang. (The guy on the extreme left...)

I could almost remember the time when he joined us at HQ as a HR colleague. He is someone that you won't take note of as he has a very quiet and shy personality. But not until you know him, then you will realise that his gentle and genuine care for people is truly a magnet that attracts people to him.

I remember those times when we had lunches at the canteen, and bus trips from Tagore to AMK central. We would almost talked about our plans to further our studies, our work, our struggles at work, our personal lives etc. He leads a very simple life. Most of the time, it is either he will stay at home with his parents, read his favorite books or he would play badminton with his favorite gang of people. He is someone that you can count for help and never will he reject you nor show frowns on his face even when he is so busy at work.

Today, those who had known him as a colleague, no longer remain as colleagues, but friends. We knew that this chance had only lasted for a few short years but it is ok. Because we had the chance to cross our paths with each other.

Although he left early and had only 28+ years on this earth, he had left many many footprints in many hearts.

Hong Yang, I will always remember you in my heart.

Christmas in another 2 days!

Christmas is coming, 2 more days to go! n tomorrow will be countdown, gift exchanges and many Christmas parties. As usual, mine will always be quietly spent. No gift exchanges, no gatherings... how cool can my Christmas be! lol...

But then, I haven't search for the one gift that is for my hubby, and another for my dear Jesus. Perhaps, the Lord wants the best gift from is that I will relocate the joy and contentment that I once had. In my hubby's words, it is call resiliency.

So what kind of resolutions should I have for 2012? Health, Spiritual, Job?

Time for reflections once again!

Christmas Pressies for myself!

Guess what? I've just redeemed some products with my cash points at Philips Family Rewards! Of cos, these items ain't free! But they are at discounted prices!

Wonderful indeed! These will be new addition the the stuff we have once we moved back to my in-laws' place!

Christmas pressies for myself! Woohoo!!

Reviving my blog

Today marks my 1 month after leaving my job. The past month hasn't been easy afterall. I was reflecting, rescreening the scenes but they just doesn't make sense at all. Perhaps, I just need time to rejuvenate my mind and soul. Afterall, there have been too much going on in my life for the past few years. I need re-locate my identity once more.

I have also realised that when you are in the bottom pit of your life, you will know who are the true friends that remember you and go through this pit with you.

Seriously speaking, this is a tough time of my life. Well, maybe just one of the tough ones. I've been through many afterall.

Loving my new workplace

2 months into my job already. it seems like a brand new environment. work is challenging due to its industry but I've been learning and growing in my B2B capacity as a marketing person. Never did I realise that I fell back to the MarCom role again. Guess that I will never run away from this. Good stepping stone for me to grow and learn.

Hope to be able to stay teacheable as always.

I know that God's eyes are always on me.

Our Gift from God

This is a belated testimony but I still want to share. :)

We started applying for our flats since October 2009 and since then, we have applied for 5 times of BTO & balanced flats altogether. But still, I really want to thank God for watching over us in the entire process.

So last year, when we were still preparing for our wedding, we were consistently monitoring the news on BTO and resale flat prices. After times of discussion, consultation and calculation, we decided not to focus on buying resale anymore, since we don't have so much cash for the COV. Plus the money that we need to come out with for the renovation, furnitures etc, we confirmed our decision even further.

So last year, on my birthday eve, we decided to ask God to bless us in our application to Woodlands Dew. We asked God to watch over us in this application so that we will be able to get a location that is near church and our parents' place. Amazingly, God answered our prayers! After a month of painful waiting, or should I say anticipation, we finally gotten the letter saying that we have gotten a queue number! Our queue number was 478! We were happy for a moment as we finally gotten a queue number to select our flat. But next, we took a re-look at the number of 4-room flats available for our selection and only got to know that there were only 569 units for us to select.

Logically speaking, our chance of selecting an unit at L2-L4 is pretty high, due to our queue number is really quite far behind. We were really praying that God will provide us with the very best for our family. So the day to select our flat came, God gave us a good date where we are able to choose our unit on Christmas eve. That timing also happened only after our honeymoon. Our appointment was 6.30pm and we monitored the units left. Most of the better units were taken up but still, there were high level units around. We discussed, analysed and walk through some selection of units. Amazingly, the block and particular unit that we wanted on the high level, was left with only L12, 13 & 14. As time goes by, L14 was taken, L12 was taken as well. I was praying hard, so was Alex. Finally, our queue number was called. And we took L13!! Praise God! The last unit on the high level was taken by us. God is so good.

So below are some pics of our BTO project, Woodlands Dew. :)

Artist's Impression of Woodlands Dew

It has a eating place (also known as kopitiam), supermarket and some shops. But our block is the furthest away from the carpark. So must walk a bit la. The good thing is that it is quite far away from the Precinct Pavillion, so we won't be disturbed by any events held there. So that is a plus point. Our block also has a childcare centre and also situated near a primary school, so it may benefit us if we have kids next time.

Here's the map of our BTO. Well, it is quite a distance from Admiralty MRT Station but in the future, when the North South Expressway is up, it will be quite near our place. Moreover, coming up is a new Thomson line for MRT track. So I presume our property prices may be going up too. :p

Here's the basic (suggested) layout for our flat.

Alex and myself are really looking forward to our new place. We will be saving up for the new place and we do hope to make our home the cosiest place to stay in, ever.

And yes, I still want to give thanks to God for blessing us abundantly. God, you're the best!

A new season in life!

It's been 4 months since I've got married to Mr L.X. Haha... The journey is exciting and interesting. Who says newly weds don't quarrel? We quarrel like crap over the slightest, smallest and most insignificant things. Haha!!

But still, it has been wonderful and beautiful what marriage can do. I have decided to quit my job to spend my time nua-ing with hubby... hee... no.. I was just finding that as a lame excuse. The real thing is that I need to search for new directions in my career and asking God for favor in the new job that I will be getting (burp!!... yes I just burped while typing this...)

Anyway I have been wanting to take a break since a long long time ago... My last year has been tough cos studies, work, ministry, wedding... almost drove me up the wall! So now, what can I anticipate? Hmm... continue to transit into my "Mrs Tan" life and re-think about my priorities with God, work on my career prospects and directions, pray and ask God to keep me slim while I go Taiwan in May with hubby for second honeymoon.... eat, sleep, play, eat, play, sleep... muahahaha....

Good news is Mr L.X. is not unemployed anymore as he has found a new HR job with a FMCG company. I wish that I can do that too!! haha.... But still, enjoy life as it is now... and God will provide me with something good soon.

I need to just bring my focus and faith back to the One who has created me and everything else! Yay!!

Btw this is what I bought just last month!! happy... hohoho...

Guess what??

Guess what?? I'm getting married in 11 days time... oh my gosh... wait... 11 days... is it inclusive of the actual day? or should I just count it as 10?

Anyway it shouldn't be much of a guess...

and ta-da!! here's my invitation card design

Ok... got to go... lunch time...

Life at Work...

Today is just celebration at work... therefore, we took pictures to have fun and also celebrate our end of Kick-off Meeting. End of our 9 months hardwork... and the start of another...

But I think the fun element is irreplaceable... :D

Never done so much for myself before....

Sitting alone in my hotel room now... thinking about my childhood days, my schooling days, my church days and my now. I never thought that I would be living for myself. I have been living all my life thinking about how to take care of others, how to bring joy to others, how to please other people. It is only now then I realised that I am starting to live for myself.l Not that I am self-centred or what, but I never thought that I can have a life that can know God but yet at the same time know myself.

My shepherd once told me, "I think you ought to start doing something for yourself and stop thinking about others...". I want to tell her that I am finally living for myself. I started to take my degree course (finally...), I started to take my time off to watch movies that I like (not what others like), and I started to discover more about what I am, not others want me to be.

It is such an amazing journey. However, sometimes it can be kind of scary when God starts to reveal much of you to you. There is just this much that you can take isn't it?

Time has passed and now I am going to be 29. I used to think that I will always be 17 or 18 years old. But now 10 years have passed and life is still a journey.. a way longer than I expected. God is faithful and He has never let me down, even though I have. I hope that the up and coming journey will be much more fulfilments than now, that I will allow myself to know God more. Start living for God, start living for me. :D

It's the vicious cycle again

Sometimes, when life gets all busy and you wonder if anyone out there remembers your existence, I really think God does. But the very sad thing is that as a human being, I still tend to pin my hopes on men. So what's men all about? Basically, men, like you and me, simply are human beings that tend to fail each other. I am one of them.

I know that I shouldb't be pinning my hope on people but I just simply can't. Sometimes, you know that the effort of wanting to re-establish that relationship is not easy, especially when you are no longer in that radar of sight.

I wish that my friends do remember me. I hope they do. But little sms or calls I get from any of them. Perhaps, it is just because everyone is busy with their lives. Well, I am really busy too. Everyone who knows me will always hear me say, "I'm very busy one hor..."

But still, I always make that effort of wanting to organise something for that birthday girl or birthday boy. I guess that I'm just trying too hard.

Well, I think I shouldn't be doing all these since these are all not taken into account that I am trying my very best maintain that friendship while I'm busy with my work, my studies, my ministry and my wedding.

I feel like just hiding somewhere... away from this world...