Sunday, December 28, 2003
Yes!! The year of 2003 will be coming to an end!! I've just spent my last sunday in church today. A lot of memories and incidents of 2003 keep floating in my mind. It's time to reflect and keep a tracking of the happenings this year.... before I forget about all these things.
Well, I started the year with myself still working in the tele-marketing job for the IT hardware industry. Had a hard time finding a new job until I came across with this job on Jobsdb and managed to get a Marketing Coordinator job at my current company, Videovan. Though I have to multi-task, but I still thank God that He gave me a job that I really can gain experience from. Also, I stayed out on my own for a month plus. Financially was really constraint. But thank God that He brought me through!! That's how I ended my January.
Had a great Chinese New Year and started my new job at Videovan at my first day after the CNY. Had a difficult time adjusting to the new culture and environment in the company. Colleagues were new and didn't know who to be beware of. But thankfully, my colleague, Michelle, was nice and she really take care of me well enough. I managed to learn quite a bit of things from her. Though not all yet. But I'm waiting to learn more... :)
March was not that fantastic. YWAM sent off two wonderful brother and sister. That's Weiling and Jacob. My two old friends... Thought that it was really unfair to bring them over to the AWAM as Youth needs musician and drama leader. But indeed, after thinking through, it's a good deal that they go over. A good chance for them to develop and grow as well. Went to Phuket at the end of March. Only a mere one month and I went for the company's incentive trip. But that's also the start of the nightmare in Singapore - SARS. People are wearing masks at the airport. It's very scary. But we were blessed. Nothing went wrong during the trip. But to those who had suffered through all these, my blessings and condolosences to you.
April was really down. Had a tough time admitting to my pride, rebellious spirit and refusal to obey my leaders. I felt totally in the lowest peak. Refused to talked to anyone in YWAM about my problems and that includes my peers. I had deep bitterness about people around me and was having a real good stay at holland. But things still moved on. Later on, I've decided to talk to my leader Nicole. And after considering two options: To stay in Youth to serve in Singing ministry or To go Young Adult group and start things afresh. I've considered for almost two weeks or so. And finally I've decided to agree to the transfer to YA group. It took me quite some time to agree mentally and emotionally. Cos I have never thought of transferring at all. But since I've requested, and that this will be good for my spiritual development, I have finally decided to let go and let God. I don't want to stop growing in my spiritual life and need people to identify me in my working life. That's why I think transfer is the best choice!!
Had my last service on the 10 May 2003. It was a Mother's Day service. Had so much feelings and thoughts. It wasn't just me. Many were transfering over to the YA group, inclusive of Andrea, who stayed in Youth for more than 8 years I think. Longer than I did. We had so much memories. Almost more than half my youth was spent there. YWAM had a bowling session at Textile Centre. After the whole session, Nicole announced the the three transfers. One was me, to YA. And the other two was Timothy and Xiaowen, transfered to YS. Felt pretty sad cos expected to have some word of encouragement from some pple in the group...but nope. Ended up in disappointment. But never mind. I still thank God for them. And David Chua Seng Cheong got transfered to YWAM and it was his first day. 3 out and 1 in. Haha. God is really humorous. Had tears in my heart leaving this group and the service. But still bored them in my heart. No one knows. Only God knows.
Went for the first CG in YA on the 14th. The first person I saw was my CL Alex. If didn't remember wrongly, he was not that skinny. But after being 'tortured' by us for so many months, I think he became skinnier. Not long after, I saw Josherine coming in with some of the other brothers. Had a wonderful Pot Luck dinner. Also, we played a blanket game with Edwin's CG. My group lost then. Haha ... then we had the privilege of using one of the air-coned bedrooms for our discussion. Had a great welcome by the brothers. Haha... they gave us a frame each... wonderful encouragement. Had a great time with them. They are very encouraging and Alex gave us a good intro of the guys. But never did they know that they are going to face lots of lame jokes soon...
Had a great camp at Orchard Hotel with my CG members. About courageous community. Hmm, come to think of it, I'm not as courageous and dun really have much faith in God so far. But I want to grow in this area more. Then on the last night, we had a gala dinner. I sat with the YWAM cos didn't managed to register with the adults. Had a great time taking photos with the people. Most importantly, had a great time having dinner with the YWAM for the last time. That was the most uncultured gala dinner so far. Everyone's with their digital cameras, busying snatching one another for photos. Haha... scary siah. Then managed to meet Shumin through Jasmine Poon. Then slowly brought her for CG and service as well. Now she's with us and I'm realli happy for her. Then later on, met Weiquan at BK after finished surveying the crowd on their ideas of Bruce Almighty. Weiquan was with his friend, grabbing something to makan after watching Finding Nemo. Thereafter, I managed to exchange contact numbers and finally he came to Sunday service with Zimin and Adam. And there Zimin came to know God on the 15.
July was ok. Nothing much. But we sent Luke off in his farewell CG on the 9. It was his last CG with us before he flies to Australia for his pilot training. Sang for him a song - "Keep The Candle Burning". Hope that his fire for God will continue to grow and burn. Never forgotten the touching scene that happened that night. It was a great time and believe that Luke was really touched!! Long way to go Luke!!
August was the time that my niece turned 1!! She's a National Day's baby!! Went for National Day preview. First time in my life that I celebrated National Day with so many people in National stadium. Phew!! It was a marvellous time and the fireworks are just behind me. And guess who's beside me? It's not my boyfriend, not my beloved and not my long-lost buddy, it's my sister. haha the first time we went out together. And it's for a preview. Well, a good time for us to build sisterhood man!! I ended my month of August at KL. I flew to KL on the 25 and with fear and trembling, I went there to take over some role and responsibilities of the Malaysia office there. Need to start working with the people there. Communication and environment transition. Scary though when I think back now.
Spent my birthday at Genting. Was so happy when I got to know that some of my unit's people are coming over to Genting for a retreat. Took a one day's leave from my GM and travelled to Genting from Petaling Jaya on my own. Took M'sia's cab, LRT and finally coach and cable car to Genting. Exciting journey though. Had a wonderful celebration 45 minutes before my birthday is over. They gave me a surprise that I've anticipated. keke. But I didn't spoil their fun though. Keep them in suspense instead of them keeping me in suspense.Took coach back to Singapore with them. First time doing so cos I've been taking coach to and fro S'pore and KL alone. But at last, I have companionship. Ended my month in a big drop. Two days after my birthday, I got to know that my Dad had an affair with my mom's friend. Can't take the hurt. Was broken to pieces. My heart was deeply wounded. Couldn't remembered how much I cried. But definitely, countless times.
Thought that I can go back to Singapore for good in mid October. In the end have to stay in Malaysia for another two weeks or so. Burnt a big hole in my pocket cos S$300 over dollars of phone bills waiting for me to clear after calling and smsing my buddies in Singapore. Haha But I'm glad it's worth the bills. Oh yar, Weiquan flew to London for his studies. Really miss this guy. His farewell, and his flight. How I wish that I can meet him for the farewell that day. I hope that he remembers GN3. We'll be waiting for his coming back next June. See him back and I'll always remember to fulfill his wish - Pray for him no matter what. I will brother.
I'm back!! Back in Singapore for GOOD on the 8th!! Had many mixed feelings but am still glad that I'm back!! James had a Water Baptism on that day but I missed it. Was really tired then. It was really a different feel to be back in church when I no longer have to rush for coach trips at 6pm. Taking cab to orchid hotel and buying tickets for the next week's trip back to Singapore. But finally it's over!! Took time to transit back to Singapore's pace. It's different. But it's good.
Had Homerun roadshows. Busy like mad. First time I worked til 1am in the morning in this company. If u know well enough, I will choose not to do OT but this time round is different. Christmas dinner was on the 20th. My long-time ex-secondary school classmate Sharon met up with me for that dinner. Touched and thankful to God for her. Had a gd laugh at the drama. Organised a miniature Amazing Race on Christmas eve. And countdown, movie- School Of Rock followed after that. Had supper after movie and went to Esplanade to spend the rest of the night there. It's the first time that I really overnight outside in the streets. Never liked to do that but I did it!! Haha.
Left a few more days to 2004. Going to have a wonderful time for countdown to 2004. Still, it's a good time reflecting. Let it be that I will never live the days of 2004 like those of 2003.
Gonna set my resolutions for 2004 soon. Hope that you will do so too.... Hear from all of you... especially my buddies!! :) Love all of you!!