faithtricia's steps of faith

Thursday, April 05, 2012

Faith, faith, where art thou?

Yup, nothing short to say that I am searching for faith now. The faith that I used to have and grow with as a young believer, to a shepherd, to a leader. So where is my faith now?

It makes me ponder how and why did I possess such great faith last time. Did I really lose my faith?

But hold on! I don't think that I have lost it! It is just that I have not been displaying it. By not displaying it is not a healthy sign but I am slowly showing it off again. :)

When I thought that my faith came from people around me, people who constantly feed me the Word of God, teachings, shepherding etc... But truely speaking, we all know that faith comes from hearing the Word (Romans 10:17) and I know that I have not had enough of God's word.

The time that God really spoke so loudly to me was when I heard Rev Marty Blackwelder's message last Sunday that I can't help but to feel ashame of my spiritual walk with Christ. Being a believer in Christ for the past 16 years, I have not even gotten my fundamentals correct - Spending time with my Creator. I am not comparing this with anyone else but to look back at my life, how God has graciously walked with me despite the fact that I have not been a faithful follower.

Yet, He used me. Yes, He chose me.

God's grace is never OOS (out of stock) and will always be full and abundant, never even require any replenishment. The only replenishment is that our soul should draw from Him, the ever flowing river, so that our soul will no longer parch nor thirst.

Ask me if I still love God... Yes I do.

How can I not love Him? He, the ever faithful Father, hears my cry and knows my heartbeat, and eventually answered my prayers - bring my mum to the Lord. This prayer has intensified as I have seen how my mum aged over the years. Though not often prayed out loud, but my tears have represented my prayers for my mum. And this year, my mum has been saved and not only saved, she has received all promises that God has promised! God healed her, restored her and gave her peace, peace that she has never received before in her life.

Everytime my mum shares with me about how she experienced God's healing touch and power, it simply brings me closer back to the Lord. My mum, a 2 months old believer, has experienced Christ more than I could have ever asked for.

My only hope is that I will be able to experience God's power, touch and the Holy Spirit's protection and friendship once more.

If you are dry spiritually, why not you pray to the Lord, just as I did, let God fill your soul once again?

God can do this for not just someone, but for everyone and anyone!

Thank you Lord once again for your inspiration and courage!!

Labels: ~r.e.f.l.e.x.i.o.n.~, God's Love

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Hope Faith Love

Amazing love from our heavenly daddy cannot be compared to anyone else at all, not even your spouse.

However I love it when both Alex an myself draw near to God in prayer and worship. Its because that through our experience with Jesus then will we be able to find greater intimacy with each other.

God is amusing. He knows exactly when we start to place much hope and faith in ourselves and will put us in situations to remind us that we need to rely on His power and strength, not on our own. He is not a tyrant btw. He is just trying to teach us to mature in our own beautiful ways.

The past few months have been a real journey for me. The journey that reminds me that my wisdom is no wisdom at all, my experiences are minus compared to the significance of the creator of the earth.

The Lord is gracious and merciful. He will not take me beyond what I cannot bear. He knows exactly where is my breaking point and have decided to pull back from that collapsible.

Above all, hope in the Lord, which will be accompanied by faith in Him. And He who loves me will keep me. He who loves me will always reward me with the best life plan ever.

I will trust in you Lord, by your grace, keep me trusting in You. Amen!

Labels: God's Love

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Alabaster Box by Cece Winans

VERSE 1

The room grew still as she made her way to Jesus
She stumbles through the tears that made her blind
She felt such pain, some spoke in anger
Heard folks whisper, there's no place here for her kind.
Still on she came, through the shame that flushed her face
Until at last she knelt before His feet.
And though she spoke no words
Everything she said was heard,
As she poured her love for the Master
From her box of Alabaster.

CHORUS

And I've come to pour my praise on Him like oil from Mary's Alabaster Box
Don't be angry if I wash His feet with my tears and I dry them with my hair.
You weren't there the night He found me.
You did not feel what I felt when He wrapped His love all around me.
And you don't know the cost of the oil in my Alabaster Box.

VERSE 2

I can't forget the way life used to be.
I was a prisoner to the sin that had me bound
I spent my days pouring my life without measure.
Into a little treasure box I thought I found.
Until the day when Jesus came to me
And healed my soul with the wonder of His touch.
So now I'm giving back to Him all the praise He's worthy of .
I've been forgiven and that's why I love Him so much.

CHORUS

And I've come to pour my praise on Him like oil from Mary's Alabaster Box
Don't be angry if I wash His feet with my tears
And I dry them with my hair, my hair.
You weren't there the night Jesus found me.
You did not feel what I felt
When He wrapped His love all around me.
And you don't know the cost of the oil
Oh, you don't know the cost of my praise.
You don't know the cost of the oilIn my Alabaster Box.

Labels: God's Love, worship

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Kirk Franklin - Lean On Me

This is for the little child with no father
For that man that doesn't have a place to stay
And for that little boy living with AIDS
(Now tell your story, tell your story)
You can lean on me

There's a man (Oh yeah)
Standing on the corner
He has no home, he has no food
And his blue skies are gone (Yes it is)
Can't you hear him crying out

And there's a girl
Searching for a father and a friend
Praying that the storm someday will end
But instead of walking away
Open up your heart and say

Chorus:
I am here
You don't have to worry, I can see your tears
Ill be there in a hurry when you call
Friends are there to catch you when you fall
Here's my shoulder, you can lean on me

Oh there's a child who is sick and begging to be free
But there is no cure for his disease
He looks up to his mother as
As she hold (holds)
His hand (his hand)
Praying that someday the sun will shine again
And the pain (and the pain)
Pain will end (will end), come on

Chorus

Tell me how can I, how can I love Jesus
When Ive never seen His face
Yet I see you dying
And I turn and walk away

So hold my hand, let me take you to a friend of mine
Hes waiting just to ease your troubled mind
Yeah, yeah, He loves you more than you'll ever know
Instead of walking away, open up
Open up your heart and say

Labels: God's Love