Sunday, August 27, 2006
I was trying hard to get myself back to my feet, trying not to have negative thoughts and learning to receive forgiveness and grace, so that I will take up the courage to try again. But it was tough.
It seemed almost meaningless for me to stay in the path and direction that I was supposed to be. Left to think alone in the room made me even more depressed.
It was felt like a death sentence ( a sentence that I have proclaimed). But when grace came, I didn't know how to accept or respond. It was almost impossible. But it was just as amazing as how God gave his grace abundantly to us, even when we are least deserved of it.
God taught me a great deal of things this time round.
Be humble. Learn from it. Do not let your emotions take hold of you. Be repentant. Make full use of your experience and do not make the same err again.
Well, God is still good and faithful even when I am faithless. So who am I to deny His faithfulness?